I knew him since a long tym but We were gud frndz for 6 yrs…. ( kuch milde ne loki nit sanu.. kuch reh jande.. kuch chale jande vang hawa banke te kuch vas jande sahaan vich saah banke) wen he was nt ma frnd .. there was nobody whom I can say my real frnd .. wen v bacme frnd… den also I did nvr meet such guy whom I can say my best frnd now hez nt vth us den also I cant say sumbody my special frnd …. N wen he was in trouble .. once he made me realize which place I carry in his heart as a frnd…. N its everything for me…. Describing abt him wud b lyk m insulting his values of frndship …. But on his bday I want to collapse sum gud moments which we shared vth each other…..
since the tym almost 3 yrs I m staying away from my home,,, I wud hav nvr missed ma parents / ma siblings/ my old frndz as I shud hav to bcoz tarun was dere in every situation …. He was a kind of person…. With whom u can discuss ane matter whether its ur personal probe, carrer tensions…ane matter. For the probes u cudnt find the reason,,,,, he can tell u exact reason n resolution of that probe…. He used to b my consltant as well as my medicine… wen he was in chd… we 3 frndz used to sit together… me, tarun n sahil…. Ma ofc was quite near to fun republic… .those days tarun was wrkng in icici in sec 9… n sahil lived in kharar… all of us used to be gathered at FR in lunch tym at Mcds….. n dat was d gr8 fun… n one of the memorable moments of ma chd lyf ….. 2 or 3 tymz v sat at ma ofc also… v njoyed a lot….
Wn ever I use to reads his msgs…. Sumwhere its feels that tarun wantd to teach me how to be strong wen ur gud frndz aren’t besides u…. once he send me the msg ( tumhari duniya se jane ke baad hum tumhe hare k tare mein nazar aaaya krenge .. tum har pal koi dua maang lena aur hum har pal tuut jaya krenge ) ,, n I got very angry wen I read his this msg.. n I shouted on tarun ,, how cud he send such stupid msg ….. n now I do realize the real meaning of dat msg,,,, wen ever I miss him badly…. I want to weep vth sumone… wen I need sumone to share my thoughts.. I use to gaze at stars… n I try to find him in stars n wenever I watch falling star… it feels lyk tarun wants me to make a wish… n he wants to giv me sumthing… n I use to make a wish at that tym….
Since 3 months… he didn’t tell me dat he met vth an accident…. Wen he was bed ridden for 1 yr… once v were talking at nite … its 12 midnyt.. I was crying too much due to my personal probe…. He was trying to make me understand the real facts of lyf… but I was keeping on crying den he told me,,, (beta , sun main ek saal se is room mein hun… sari lyf khatam si lagti hai… kisi frnd se baat nhi ,, kisi se milna nhi.. kyunki main sabhi ko bta kar kisi ke sympathy nhi lane chahta hun,,, sara din iss room mein in deewaron ko dekhte rehna .. laptop par online rehna.. bas yhi lyf reh gayi hai,, yeh pyaar , paisa, gfz, affairs, yeh sab kuch nhi hai.. agar tumhari zindagi hi nhi hai… mujhse puch zindagi kya
Hoti hai…. wait kr rha hun uss tym ki jab main iss room se bahar ja sakunga) … among ma all frndz he was the only one with whom I used to share ma secrets… now wenevr I feel lonely.. i use to read his msgs… sumtymz I even dail his numbers…. N wen I think to b dependent on sum wrong stuffs ….. I remember his those words … n den I keep ma mind diverted from all stupid things for which he always used to make me understand coz dey are injurious to ma health… if today I m alive …. He z the only reason…. Who made me understand the real value of lyf…
On his last birthday… I was in chd… one of ma frnd was working in 92.7 fm … at nite I insisted her to make a call on tarunz number n gv wishes on his bday on air… n she did the same… den in my pg.. I gave him bday wishes along vth all my roommates… n he was really happy…. Aftr a long tym I waz listening him smiling ….. I can nvr forget wen he said me tanx ,, n I started crying bcoz I knw how much he z sufrng behind that smile n still he z pretndng to b happy… n I dnt wana him to knw this.. n I dscnctd the call n den he send me the msg … ( don’t worry jaldi theek hokar aaunga tujhse chd milne) ,,,,, on 20th sep 2008 , Saturday he came to chd n evn we plannd for meeting but v cudnt meet n dat was my last day in chd… next day I hav to shft sumwhere else n I was leaving chd… I was in sec 17 waiting for him .. it was raining .. n I got his call. He told me.. he z busy sumwhere n cant cum. Its urgent.. I didn’t say anething … I came back at home… nxtday he called me up.. n said ( tu phone par rone lag jati hai mere problem se … tu mujhe iss condition mein nhi dekh sakti thi ) n sumwhere he was quiet right .. I cudnt see him in dat condition…
I HaV LeaRnEd how tu LuV , tu Sm!le,
Tu b HaPpy, tu b $tRoNg, tu work hARd,
Tu b hone$t, tu b Fa!ThFuL, tu FoRg!Ve bUt
I coUldn’t leArN hOw tu Stop missing u….!!!
U MaY B oUt of our Sights,
But Not OuT Of our Hearts,
U may b oUt of our ReAch But Not oUt
Of our m!Nds, we mAy mEAn NoTh!Ng Tu u bUt
U w!ll always$ b SpEc!Al tu us….!!!
I miss u wen I m sad.. I miss u wen I lonely… I miss you wen I m worried …. But the most I miss u wen I m happy,,,, God ! all of us need tarun more than you . plz send him back to us.. v love u tarun a lot.. miss u…
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