You have always been the Big B...the first born in our family...the heart and soul for everyone. You were the one who just tied all of us with that one string.you were that invisible card that we have, that could be used anywhere and everywhere...say it school or home. Having you in our life was like having a shoulder to cry on, a hand that you know will pull you out from the deepest shit.
From keeping us safe, to keeping us at home- happy and sound :P you did it quite efficiently. You were someone, whom the whole family could bank upon. like a staircase from one generation to other. your values, your thoughts along with the book you have written is safe with us :)
Things are different now,we have learned to live, while missing you...thinking about you.
Even now sometimes i can still feel you around(i am sure we all can), as if you are somewhere very near. i look around at people, with the slightest of similarity...that face, those big eyes,those crazy hairs :). i immediately feel a bond to the person who have any-any thing common with you, just to realize that they are still not you.
May be you know that or not, but even while leaving this World you have taught us the biggest lesson... nothing is permanent, and you can live with and without anything...
i have been an excessively emotional person whole my life, and it really kills me when someone is going away, or i should say just the idea of falling apart, scares the hell out of me...
But then i think about you...and i know if we can manage a life without you, there is nothing/noone's absence we can't sustain.
well, that is a terrible thing to say, but that what life is.
And with this note i want to say one thing, even if there are not many posts on this page, even if we don't say it aloud that many times, but we love you, we all love you alot. and no matter what you will always remain in our hearts and our lives :)
Jagriti
